Under the Weather

The last few days have been a little rough as I have not been feeling myself lately.  I don’t feel like I am actually sick per se but am just tired all the time.  I stayed home from work yesterday to try and rest with the hope that I would feel better with some extra rest but even after sleeping most of the day off and on yesterday and then also getting well over 10 hours of sleep last night, I’m still feeling absolutely exhausted.  Not sure if daily stress has finally caught up with me or if I have some kind of illness that is causing my body to just shut down but I hope that going into the weekend I will be able to continue to rest and hopefully feel better by next week.

Work hasn’t exactly help much as I continue to feel pretty much ignored most of the time; at least until someone needs something from me.  I will say that my manager at least does make it a point to say good morning to me most days so that’s a plus compared to the past.  However, other things just stick in my craw as when I attempt to ask for help on issues that I am unable to assist with, I feel like I am ignored or made to feel like I am some kind of annoyance.  It’s not the greatest feeling in the world.  I’ve worked for this company for a rather long period of time (going on 18 years) and most times I can handle pretty much any issue that is thrown at me but when it comes to the highly complex issues that require approval above my pay grade it would be nice to get the attention I need to help resolve it rather than having to track people down and pester them until I get an answer.  That process just takes it toll on me and every day I feel completely drained by the time I actually get home that I can barely function.

Something is going to have to give soon or my health is going to be severely impacted.  I’m already stress eating from time to time which isn’t good.  I have at least given up on soda but now I’m wondering if I need to add the caffeine burst back in just to survive the day.  I want be able to be more active but right now all I can think about it sleep.

Weight Loss Goals and Striving to Achieve Them

After watching my weight creep up and up and then feeling completely exhausted on the golf course, I decided it was time to really buckle down and work on dropping the weight, getting back into shape, and work on my overall health.  To achieve this I came up with a goal to drop 20-30 pounds by Oct 1, 2017.  That may be a little on the excessive side but even if I only hit half of that in that time period I will feel accomplished but want to push to hit that goal as closely as I can.

I sat down and worked out a exercise process as I felt this was one area that I really needed to focus on since I sit at a desk all day long and rarely even get up because I’m just so busy throughout the day.  I remember back to my days as a sales associate for Montgomery Wards in their Electric Avenue department.  My supervisor at the time made the statement that she thought I was anorexic.  So I looked back at my life then to really determine what I was doing those 20+ years ago compared to what I’m doing now.  Back then, I was always on my feet, either walking around talking to customers, helping build displays, or pulling merchandise.  The point is I was always on the move.  Once I got a desk job, the pounds started to pile on because I was no longer in motion.

As part of my daily routine, I have set a goal to spend 45 minutes a day on my Elliptical machine.  This should help at least keep the weight somewhat under control by burning the calories and building up my endurance.  From there it will be adding in weights and other strength building exercises such as planks, push ups, sit ups, etc.

Hopefully over time I will see the weight start to come off again.  The goal is to be healthier, stronger, and ultimately feel better all around.