The last few days have been a little rough as I have not been feeling myself lately. I don’t feel like I am actually sick per se but am just tired all the time. I stayed home from work yesterday to try and rest with the hope that I would feel better with some extra rest but even after sleeping most of the day off and on yesterday and then also getting well over 10 hours of sleep last night, I’m still feeling absolutely exhausted. Not sure if daily stress has finally caught up with me or if I have some kind of illness that is causing my body to just shut down but I hope that going into the weekend I will be able to continue to rest and hopefully feel better by next week.
Work hasn’t exactly help much as I continue to feel pretty much ignored most of the time; at least until someone needs something from me. I will say that my manager at least does make it a point to say good morning to me most days so that’s a plus compared to the past. However, other things just stick in my craw as when I attempt to ask for help on issues that I am unable to assist with, I feel like I am ignored or made to feel like I am some kind of annoyance. It’s not the greatest feeling in the world. I’ve worked for this company for a rather long period of time (going on 18 years) and most times I can handle pretty much any issue that is thrown at me but when it comes to the highly complex issues that require approval above my pay grade it would be nice to get the attention I need to help resolve it rather than having to track people down and pester them until I get an answer. That process just takes it toll on me and every day I feel completely drained by the time I actually get home that I can barely function.
Something is going to have to give soon or my health is going to be severely impacted. I’m already stress eating from time to time which isn’t good. I have at least given up on soda but now I’m wondering if I need to add the caffeine burst back in just to survive the day. I want be able to be more active but right now all I can think about it sleep.
I’ve been really on edge lately to point that I feel like I am absolutely ready to explode any minute. It started yesterday and I originally just chalked it up to golf and frustrations that go with it but it has continued well beyond that point. I had a hard time sleeping last night and I can just feel the absolute rage just getting ready to burst. Today hasn’t helped at all and the more snark I receive from people, the worse it is getting. I have to find a way to calm down or at least bring it under control before I absolutely blow my stack and snap. It needs to happen soon.
So this weekend was certainly a wet one to say the least. We our company picnic on Saturday afternoon at the horse ranch and it was a great time but the rain started to fall almost as soon as we arrived. On the bright side of things, they were prepared with a contingency plan. We were located under a huge wedding pavilion area for eating and socializing and then they had another pavilion not far away that had bouncy houses for the kids along with a spin barrel ride. Even with the rain it seemed like everyone had a great time.
Sunday we tried to get in 9 holes of golf as I wanted to test out 2 new clubs I had purchased from a Callaway Demo Day event. The morning started off just fine and while I struggled with my club for a good part of the round, I still had a great time. When we got to hole 8, I was on my second shot and as I was looking down at the ball, I noticed the sun was disappearing and the wind was picking up which wasn’t a good sign at all. By the time we finished with 8 and got to the tee box on 9, we started to hear thunder and the rain began to fall so it was a mad dash to the club house to get our clubs in the car and get out of the torrential downpour. At least we were able to get a fantastic hot meal with something they called “Southern Grits”. It was really a great high quality grits with fried chicken, a fried egg, and some andouille sausage. So while we couldn’t get in a full round, at least the food was great and we were able to get some fresh air for a while.