Yesterday was a tough day for me. For the first time since I closed my agency, I took a drive out to the beach using a similar rout that I used to take to work. This was a big step for me as I see the closure of my agency as a complete failure on my part. I feel like I didn’t try hard enough, that I didn’t put in enough time, and it cost me everything. I still cannot bring myself to drive past the building itself.
There were just so many emotions that I had to keep contained yesterday but I think it actually helped me a little to be able to get out and try to return some normalcy to my life. Of course it seems I just can’t get away from it as I got a letter from Farmers yesterday and a problem that came up when my agency was open reared its head again that is going to have to have me reach out to them again to try and get resolved. I can only hope that in the next few weeks I can completely close this chapter on my life and officially move on.